Today you are five years old. I really cannot believe it. This last year has been one full of big changes for you. As I returned to work, you began preschool, and now kindergarten. It has been so hard for me to be away from you; to trust others to care for you in my absence is harder than I ever imagined it would be. Although I miss you so much while we are apart, I know these changes are important for you, so you can grow and become more independent. You are developing such great relationships. You have new friends, new teachers, and even have your first girlfriend. You also are getting a chance to develop a deeper bond with your dad while I work. I am so glad for all of these, but if I'm being honest, I'm also jealous. I'm used to being your everything and now I share you. It's very hard, but I am so proud of you.
You are such an outgoing little boy. When you met your kindergarten teacher for the first time and bravely shook her hand and said, "I'm Jack Allen," I thought I might burst with pride. When I drop you off at school, you barely have time for a good-bye because of your excitement for the day. It's wonderful to see, even if it's hard for me to experience.
I love our conversations. I love your enthusiasm. I love how sweet you are. I love that you still kiss me multiple times a day. And, I love that you still need me.
I worry everyday that I don't do enough for you. You deserve the best and I fail often as a mom, but know that I will keep trying for you. I will strive to give you more attention, more patience, and more understanding. You are the person who drives me to be better. I am forever grateful to you for that.
I love you more and more each day.
Love,
Your Mom
